August 2008
Sit back and relax.
11:15 p.m. Soooooooo sleepy. Good night. Seriously :).
You can count on the sun to rise and the stars to come out at night.
“Put your future in good hands - your own.”
– Random quote
“Forgive? sounds good. Forget? I’m not sure I could. They say time heals...”
– Random quote
Darkness.
10:57 p.m. Just a lil some-some I wrote a month or two ago? ENJOY :)
all i could hear her say was ‘it’s okay, it’s okay’ … the tightness in my chest loosened and i tried to catch my breath but nothing came. she grabbed my hand and wrapped her other arm around me and whispered in my ear to calm down and breathe. i felt like i was drowning in water, trying to swim to...
“I can accept failure. Everyone fails at something. But I can’t accept not...”
– Michael Jordan
10:23 p.m. I came home from school around 9:45. I feel drained. And weeeeird. Today went pretty good, I think :). Once again, I feel proud of myself, ahah. Ever since Monday, I’ve been completely freaking out (as if you didn’t notice!). But today went surprisingly well. I even got added to the geography lab class. Hopefully tomorrow goes well, too =). And then after tomorrow, we go...
3:18 p.m. It’s barely the second week of college and I already want to drop out.
I. CAN’T. DO. THIS.
9:49 a.m. Tried going back to sleep. But I just took a 10 minute nap. I woke to butterflies in my stomach and shaking hands. It freaked me out. I haven’t felt this nervous in awhile. I feel worse than usual. Gahhh, that stupid incident from Monday is getting to me. I can’t fucking relax >:[.
10:43 p.m. I feel sick. My back hurts. Oh joyyyyyyy.
“I hate this feeling. Like I’m here, but i’m not. Like someone cares, but they don’t. Like I belong somewhere else, anywhere but here.”
8:51 p.m. I hate how I’m feeling. I hate feeling STUCK. I hate feeling guilty. I hate feeling stupid and pathetic. I hate feeling alone and misunderstood.
I feel numb. It’s times like these I want to end it all. When I want to hurt myself. When I just want to … disappear. I WISH I WAS STRONGER THAN THIS.
“Never regret. If it’s good, it’s wonderful. If it’s bad,...”
– Victoria Holt
“If you’re angry at a loved one, hug that person. And mean it. You may not...”
– Walter Anderson
8:30 p.m. I am soooooooooooooo stupid. And pathetic. I can’t even blog about school -__-. I feel horrible as it is. I don’t want to remember anything. I just want to drop it. I just want to forget it. I want to move on. It happened. It’s over. Just forget it. The day is over. There’s nothing I can do about it. I will do better on Wednesday. Just take it one step at a time....
“I often wonder if life is easier for other people or if they’re just...”
– PostSecret
“People have scars in all sorts of unexpected places. Like secret road maps of...”
– Random quote
“I was just looking at him and something happened. It wasn’t an explosion...”
– Chloe Higashida
“Many people say when you turn 18 or graduate high school, you’re officially an...”
– Me
Tell me where it hurts.
11:18 p.m. My aunt came home a few minutes ago. She cried on my shoulder. I feel so sad for her. I didn’t know what to say. I hate seeing her like that. It made my heart break :(.
“The unreal is more powerful than the real, because nothing is as perfect as you...”
– Random quote
“No decision you make is wrong as long as it’s yours.”
– Random quote
“I’ve finally stopped running away from myself. Who else is there better to...”
– Goldie Hawn
“A hug can turn your day around; it’s like an emotional Heimlich. Someone...”
– Random quote
“And I know that things get worse before they get better because that’s...”
– From the book The Perks of Being a Wallflower
“The funny thing is, nobody really ever knows how much anybody else is hurting....”
– Random quote
“It happens to everyone as they grow up; you find out who you are and what you...”
– Random quote
“I found every single successful person I’ve ever spoken to had a turning point....”
– Brian Tracey (via onherway)
I hope I make that decision. Preferably sooner than later (:
1215, your blog and insights are wonderful. Keep it up.
(via gottfried)
Aw, thank you! That made my night :].
“All my life I had been looking for something, and everywhere I turned someone...”
– Ralph Ellison, “Battle Royal” (via thresca)
Lovely.
1:17 p.m. -Taking a short break from cleaning my room. I’m really cleaning my room this time; not just stuffing clothes in the closet or throwing random stuff on my desk. FYI, I cleaned my desk! It is a MUST SEE. I will take a picture of it, muahahaha. K, well I’m on here because I found my graduation card from my sister annnnd I love it and I wanted to share it with .. well, who ever...
Like it matters.
6:36 p.m. My nose bled for almost 30 minutes? It was weird and nasty. I coughed up some blood, too. Gross. My nose hasn’t bled in awhile. I’m surprised this is the first time my nose has bled this summer. Amazing. Usually, my nose bleeds all the time when it’s summer. Whatevvva. Why am I writing about my nose bleeding?
“Communication. It’s the first thing we really learn in life. Funny thing...”
– Random quote
You think you know.
3:21 p.m. Yesterday was fun. It was Britney’s 18th birthday party! I’m too lazy to go in to detail right now, but here are some of the highlights:
Kathleen painting my nails.
Joyce and I making Jazz’s hair look “scene”.
Joyce and I curling Kathleen’s hair and me doing her make-up.
When everyone started putting frosting on each other, me and Jazz backing up...
